Last night was LONG
I swear some nights I feel like the pain of losing my only sister is destroying me.
In that dark loneliness of the middle of the night
and in the midst of the nauseating emptiness, I feel like the pain is going to swallow me alive . . .
sometimes I wish it would so I could see her again.
But then I remember that I WILL see her again
and then as quick as that thought comes . . .
I get sucked back into my emptiness . . .
I selfishly need her here
and I often wish that I wasn't so young and that I didn't have a long life ahead of me
to live without her
But I know that when this life is over I will get to squeeze her again . . . forever.
That's all I'm grasping onto right now
. . . and believe me, the grasp is tight.
xoxoxo
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